Could you talk to me,please?
you know exactly i will pay attention only to the sound of how you breathe in between but just continue.
Ah,so that is what happened.I see.Could you just come a bit closer to me?
Alright go on.And dont you wonder now if I place my trembling hand upon
yours its just for.Security.
continue with your speech.I am not holding you back.
(and if I am softly kissing your neck dont let it irritate you,please..Continue,you spoke something of a dream, or a tree or..continue please)
Those shivering knees?no need to pay attention
The tension in my stomach?
Nothing ,really.I want to hear you speak.
And if I ocasionally take a peak under your skin..
dont let it make your thoughts get out of order or spin in some disturbed ways.You know we are not here to chase each other.
You know we couldnt bother less.
I am just here to listen to you and thats what you should do now.I am ready.
Oh,my breathing doesnt come steady as usual?Its just..
the temperature.Yes right.The temperature.
Or I am allergic to  the solution used to polish the furniture in this room.Yes right.
Has nothing to do with you.
If I stare too deeply into your eyes - ah - that just seems to be.I am actually looking at the painting behind them on the wall.So you see,nothing wrong.
but continue!Continue your story,poem or song or were you talking at all?
(incase I fall down and am unconscious for a moment dont believe its because of you.You see,sometimes I dont push enough oxygen through my heart,thats all. Maybe you should tell the story again from the start)
So thats how it was.I see.Maybe I would get the story better if you would put your arm around me.Like this.Yes .Like this.
Oh really,they kissed?Could you..hmm..could you show me please what that means again?
Only for scientific understandment,of course.
She told him she fell in love with him in the end?really?those were the words she said? I love you?
oh no,I didnt say that to you.Just repeated what you told me.Of course. You know I wouldnt use those words with you in the same line.You know we are friends.
Brother and sister.
Excuse me mr. but could you just hold me for a moment?
Nothing serious.I am just a bit scared of certain sounds in this room.
Ok, its ok again . Continue. Tell me what the man said then.
He loved her too?Coincidence.
(do you talk of me with your other friends?do you mention me ..over and over again or just,keep me hidden in the back of your head?I wonder)
If I kiss you again its just because my lips feel a bit numb.No other reason.You know, its the season to be nice to each other.
(Would you present me to your mother as your eternal love?if you'd know how I hug the moonlight when it comes at night, since it resembles the colour of your skin so well.
Does such a love deserve to be buried inside of me?
Maybe I should set it free.It should be home in some other girl,who has less thoughts that whirl chaotically behind her eyes.)
Yes I heard what you just said.Of course I did.My fingers running along your face didnt distract me at all.
(If we were two chemical solutions.Could our reaction be the final end of the pollution of my mind.With thoughts like "beings like you will never have love in their life" )
Yes,I know I was absent minded for a moment.
No sorry,I dont remember the last words you said.I had my head resting in the palm of your hand.Covering my ear.
And I let the words be absorbed somewhere else..disappear.
No,no.Honestly,I am interested in what you say.
(let me become warm clay that lingers between your fingers.)
You know you are my closest mate. And I really dont exagerate when I say this :I'd never miss a single moment with you.
(Just an entire lifetime..if only I could become the reason for the increasing speed of your heartbeat.You know I wont tell you of my affection.And you will meet someone else.So, I will carry this thing inside of me eternally.Until I meet you on the street some day.Barely recognizing what you have become.And then Ill probably utter the words: It's been so long without you)
Cant we do some homework together? I really didnt understand that last formula we talked about in class
(I was practicing how fast my breath could get when a thought of you was in my head)
Would it be suspicious if I embrace you now?
Arent we talking about attraction in physics class anyhow?Yes, yes..that would be a good excuse.
I,dont know where the pen is ,no.I often lose things.
(You could dip your pen into my heart though.If you need some ink.It would sink in very smoothly.
Since I think all molecules in me,are floating around loosely.Everytime the sound of your steps comes near.)
I love you.
what?No I didnt hear anything,you?
Somebody just confessed you their love?nah,maybe that was some tv or radio voices from the apartment above us.
I want to dedicate all of me to you.I want to become wind moving through your hair.
Really,there is nobody else in here.Maybe that was the cat and you interpreted it as human voices that said something.Wasnt me for sure.How could I be.
You know you are my friend.And I love you but ,not in that way
(instead on ways that would make me want to tear myself into bits and serve myself to you as a healthy meal.Thats how I love you.To melt onto your tongue.Thats how I love you)
Yes I know.Its late.You have to go?
Ok.I'll bring you to the door.Thanks for your help,once again
(Thanks for imprinting. the entire room with your scent . I will sleep so well this night)
Bye bye.See you tomorrow.
(My love..)

nova